My Thoughts and Experiences

New Blog Site!

2010-09-17T23:41:00.000-07:00

Hi Everyone!!

I have made the decision to move my blog over to wordpress. You can read my posts at
http://girlfong112.wordpress.com/

Enjoying the Journey

2010-07-15T22:58:00.000-07:00

So it has been awhile since I have updated my blog...I have been having fun of course but this has also been a time of stretching for me and a bit of transition. With all the stretching and transition and I am learning to just enjoy the journey.

. . . how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask Him! —Matthew 7:11

God has been so faithful through this particular season of my life. Today, especially I am in awe of God's faithfulness as I celebrate another year of walking with the Lord. I can't believe that it has been 11 years! I look back at how much God has grown me in faith and yet, I see that I have so much more growing up to do.

In this particular season of my life, it is my desire to go deeper and more intimate with God! As I draw near to Him, He has certainly been faithful to draw near to me. I have such a greater revelation of God's unconditional love for me. I am beginning to understand more of God's Grace for me and that it is by His grace that I am saved and it is not by my works.

For the past four months, I have been going to a great church called The City Church. Through this church, I have literally felt the Presence of God like no other and it has been a place where I have received ministry and healing in many areas of my life. Currently, I am about to embark on a nine month journey as an intern with The City Church beginning in September. I am super excited for this opportunity as I believe that God is going to do great and mighty things in my life through this program. It is my desire to live a life that ministers to others and brings glory to God. These past few months have been amazing yet challenging as God has shown me that no matter what I do, say, or how act, HE LOVES ME!!! Now that may seem like a simple concept but that is an area that I hadn't fully grasped since I bought into the lie that I needed to work, serve and strive to be perfect for God to love me. Through this program, I have an opportunity to focus on God and be poured into by spending time with Him and allowing Him to work in me so that I can minister to others.

I hope to blog of my experience as I embark on this journey. I appreciate your prayers as I get ready for a great nine months and I fully expect God to bring me out after this program knowing who God has created me to be and for Him to bring about the dreams and desires of my heart!

My Worst Fear...Victoriously Conquered!!!

2010-05-19T21:28:00.000-07:00

WARNING!!! This post is not for people who have a weak stomach...I would suggest to stop reading now past this point...

Today was an especially long day and like any other day, I thought it would be like any typical day. I arrived to work ready to take Ty to and from preschool and to spend the day with dear Taylor. I took Ty to school who was fine when I dropped him off. Well, everything was going okay until I got a call from Ty's dad, Eric, that Ty is not acting like his typical self according to his teachers and that I needed to pick him up right away. Well, I rushed out of the house with little Taylor in tow. I arrived at the school to find Ty wrapped up in his blanket super tired.

I took Ty home and he told me that his stomach hurt. I gave him some tums and he slept for 2 hours and woke up with his stomach still hurting. I felt so bad for him, I asked him if I could pray for his stomach and he said yes...so we prayed. We believed God would heal him and He did...but not in the way that I expected.

After an hour, Ty was in real pain and I didn't know what to do so I text his mom asking for suggestions. She gave me a few suggestions and Ty didn't want to eat or do anything but be in his pjs so we headed to his room to change and it was after I put his pjs on...my worst fear came true...Ty stood there and said he felt like throwing up and before I could react...projectile vomit of Frosted Flakes and Craisins. Fortunately, he was facing away from me but I proceeded to lead him quickly to the bathroom where he threw up some more.

In my almost four years of watching the kids, I was fortunate to not have to deal with throw up which I prayed that I wouldn't have to deal with because I didn't know how I would deal with it myself. In fact, I feared what might happen and that I would get sick. Well, God's grace was all over it because I didn't throw up myself but was able to comfort Ty in his greatest time of need. After he got sick...he was fine...not only fine but 100% better and back to his normal self.

Praise the Lord for Ty's healing and although, I would rather that He didn't throw up, I happy that he is doing much better. I am so thankful that God covered me and that I have victoriously overcame one of my worst fears. Bummer is that I probably won't be eating Frosted Flakes or Craisins for awhile.

Pure Joy!!

2010-05-18T15:36:00.000-07:00

This picture says it all...There is nothing like watching the joy of a child enjoying the simple things in life...like chocolate ice cream.

How often do I allow things to come in and take and steal away my joy?...stress, worry, money, etc. We can find momentarily joy in things but finding pure joy only comes from God. We can have joy in everything with God. All we need to do is to go to Him. The amazing thing is God rejoices in us when we come to Him just as He rejoices in seeing us enjoy the simple pleasures in life like chocolate ice cream..

Psalm 5:11
But let all who take refuge in You be glad; let them ever sing for joy. Spread Your protection over them, that those who love Your name may rejoice in You.

It's A New Season!

2010-05-10T21:14:00.000-07:00

"For everything there is a season, a time for every activity under heaven." Eccl. 3:1

I was reading a devotional that mentioned this scripture and it struck me with the current season that I am in. God is the source of all life and He makes everything perfect in its season. I have thought of how certain fruits and vegetables ripen in different seasons. For instance, strawberries are in season in April and May. Similarly in our lives, we go through seasons of maturity where we ripen to what God has called us to do and be. Often times this growth comes out of a time of difficulty and sometimes it comes out of a blessing. Either way, God is faithful to make everything perfect in its season. He causes all things to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to His purposes for them. (Rom. 8:28)

What struck me about what Solomon says is that "there is a time" meaning that there is a beginning and an end. A comfort to know when we go through difficult seasons. I know that when we go through difficult seasons, it seems like this time is forever and is moving at a snail pace. However, it says in Psalm 102:11 that "life passes as swiftly as the evening shadows." In the scripture above Solomon also says "everything" which reveals that God is not surprised, He has seen all that has happened, is happening and will happen. There is no circumstance that He is not aware of and can bring His loving hand to restore and fix.

The key to fully maturing and ripening in any season is to turn to God. We need to determine, accept and value in our hearts God's perfect timing. When we doubt His timing, we move ahead of God without Him. We should strive to know and love God. He is the giver of wisdom, knowledge and true joy! Every moment and every season is an opportunity to turn back to God to guide us and to continue to mature us into our new season where we will bear much fruit for the Kingdom!

Happy Mother's Day

2010-05-09T22:35:00.000-07:00

In honor of Mother's Day, I am so thankful for Lisa who brought these 2 wonderful kids into this world and for the privilege to be a part of their lives for these past 3 1/2 years as their nanny! These kids have taught me so much on what it is like to be a mom except I don't get the sleepless nights!! I would not trade my time with them for the world! It has been truly amazing to see them grow up before my eyes! I love them so much!!

Because of them, I have more of a deep respect for mothers who day in and day out love unconditional and make so much sacrifices for their children!!

I can't believe how time flies and to think that I started watching this little guy when he was 6 months old. Here is Ty then and now at 3 1/2.

And then 2 years later came along his little sister Taylor who is now 20 months old and such a cutey pie.. .

Oh How He Loves Us!

2010-04-29T19:29:00.000-07:00

I was going through some of my old files of writings and came across this poem that I had wrote back in 2006 when I was going through a dark time in my life and found it encouraging and a beautiful reminder of God's love for me and for people...

My Love

Who am I to know a love like Yours?

You love me with an everlasting love

Beautiful, fearfully and wonderfully made

A crown of beauty and a royal jewel in Your hand

Who knows me as intimately as You?

You knew me from the beginning

And You will love me until the end for all eternity

There is nothing that escapes Your loving and watchful eye

When I am bruised and bloodied from fighting this good fight of faith

And when I am weary

You take me up by the hand to pick me up

You come to tell me that I will fight for you

You are always there and never will You forsake me

Your touch and Your presence refreshes my soul

Your portion is enough for me

Yet You want to give me so much more

How can I respond to such love?

You gave me life by Your sacrifice

All I can do is stand in awe and reverence

To praise and worship You, My Jesus, My Love

Valentine's Day Adventures!!

2010-02-17T22:31:00.000-08:00

I can't believe that we are already in February! Where has all the time gone!!?? For Valentine's Day, a bunch of us decided to take a rode trip up to LA to have dinner at Roscoe's - famous for their chicken and waffles and good soul food! Then off to City Walk at Universal Studios and capped the night off at Diddy Riese in Westwood. Got home super late and was super tired the next day but all worth it for the fun memories!!

Here is a video of how we entertained ourselves in LA traffic heading up to Roscoe's.

Such fun memories and great laughs!!

2010 - A Fresh Start to a Decade of Destiny

2010-01-23T13:13:00.000-08:00

It has been awhile since I have last posted a blog and not to make any excuses...I have been quite the busy girl but that is nothing new. I have always seen my life as a journey and at times a roller coaster (thank goodness I love roller coasters) but I am so blessed to be on the journey with the God Almighty!

Reflecting on 2009, I must say that it was a year of being stretched beyond my comfort zone. I have seen God move in amazing ways in my family and in my friendships and even in my personal walk with Him. God has brought key people in my life to build me up and I am continuing to rely more on God's grace as there were many times, I knew that in my own strength I could do nothing.

Going into 2010, I am looking forward to God moving in greater ways for He is a great God who far surpasses my understanding. Already in 2010, I was able to go on a wonderful cruise with friends to the Mexican Rivera. I had a wonderful time basking in the warm sunshine, going horseback riding in the jungle, snorkeling and eating lots of food (which you do on a cruise).

And coming back from that to life with all its challenges. Whoever says it doesn't rain in Southern California is a liar because coming back to San Diego we experienced 4 straight days of downpouring rain. Not drizzle but RAIN!! Being back in San Diego for just a week, I have had my fair share of challenges already. First off, adjusting to the drastic change in climate has contributed to me catching a small cold. On top of that, due to all the rain we have experienced, there is a leak in my ceiling. Currently, my living room is covered in plastic and I have three fans going and a dehumidifier to dry out the walls. It literally looks like a tornado hit it and sounds like one too! Thankfully, I have insurance and everything is covered but it certainly not something you want to happen. Despite the challenges, I know that I am moving in the right direction because I know who is the author of the challenges and that is the devil. However, my faith and trust is in God who faithfully takes care of me and watches over me.

Right now my journey has a few potholes in it and I know that with God, I can navigate through these and begin to move toward to all that God has for me. I believe that God is going to do great things this year and I believe that God is beginning to unfold the dreams and desires that we have been believing for to pass this year! So get ready!!

Glory to Glory, Strength to Strength

2009-08-26T22:20:00.000-07:00

It is amazing to think how 10 years flies by!! Yesterday, I celebrated my 10th spiritual birthday! I remember that day like it was yesterday. Standing up to receive Jesus in my heart at a campus bible study and listening to a message that spoke so deep into my heart that I could not help to see that God is real and that He was waiting for me to give my affections to Him instead of what the world could offer me, which was nothing but pain.

Reflecting on my walk with Jesus, I am overwhelmed by His continuous love and faithfulness in my life! Lord knows I am a knucklehead at times!! I am so thankful! I shudder at the thought of the person I would be without Him. These 10 years I have grown through some things and have been blessed beyond words! I know that there is still a lot for me to grow through and revelations for me to see. That is what I love so much about God, that I can never know Him enough and as I grow deeper in my relationship with Him. My love for Him grows so much deeper yet His love for me has always remained the same. But His love is nothing I can comprehend and even understand! It blows my mind!!

I woke up fairly early that morning and God had led me to Psalm 84:10-12

Better is one day in your courts
than a thousand elsewhere;
I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God
than dwell in the tents of the wicked.

¹¹ For the LORD God is a sun and shield;
the LORD bestows favor and honor;
no good thing does he withhold
from those whose walk is blameless.

¹² O LORD Almighty,
blessed is the man who trusts in you.

I would not trade one day without God for anything because in my very worst days, I still have hope and I know that God is with me and will never ever forsake me. I look forward to all that God has for me and I know that it is nothing but the best because as His daughter, "the Lord will bestow favor and honor; no good thing does He withhold from those who walk is blameless." Let my trust always be in You!! LOVE YOU JESUS!!!

Happy 4th of July!!

2009-07-04T10:54:00.000-07:00

Today is America's birthday!! Happy Birthday America! Thank you to all the men and women who served in the Armed Forces who daily make the sacrifice to lay down their lives for our freedom!! I am so blessed and thankful to be an American! As I enjoy good food and fellowship with friends, I will remember that our fine country was founded on Biblical principles. I pray today that we remember that and intercede that we come back to Him. God Bless America!!

So Adorable...

2009-07-02T22:22:00.000-07:00

Well...I can't believe that Taylor is going to be 11 months next week...Here is a video, I took of her a couple weeks ago of her walking! Yes...walking at 10 months!! It's amazing!! She is so adorable and is the sweetest little girl. That smile just melts my heart...Anyway, I can go on and on. I will let you see it for yourself...

A Somber Day...

2009-06-26T19:08:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, I heard the news of two icons that had passed away...Farrah Fawcett and Michael Jackson. Michael Jackson was one of my favorite artist growing up. Listening to the ongoing reports of MJ's death and hearing about his legacy...There is not a shadow of a doubt that he was an amazing artist and I only wished to have gone to see his concert in his heyday. But, despite all of his musical accalades, his legacy of course has been shrowded with controversy of accusations of child molestation and his eccentricities.

It made me think of the legacy that I would like to leave when I go and be with my Father in heaven. I probably won't have a 24 hour marathon streaming about me but I would want to remembered for my character and my love for God! A friend had sent me this article...detailing the death of a man who was sold out for Jesus! His death of course was not in the headlines but his life was no less significant than anyone elses and in my eyes definitely news worthy. Here is a story of a man named Erwin who died but was not in the headlines.

Here is a The link to the story: http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,529034,00.html as well as the excerpt from the email that was sent to me.

"But what does the near total neglect of this major story, and the non-stop coverage of Michael Jackson’s death tell us about our media, our nation, and ourselves? What does this coverage contrast tell us about who our models and heroes are, and what our values are? These are almost rhetorical questions and painful to contemplate.

Erwin lived a life of love in light of eternity. Today he was shot dead and died alone in a gutter by the very people he was serving in love. But today he also was welcomed into glory by the great cloud of witnesses and received his reward. He was known by heaven far more than he was known on earth. His legacy will last deep into the stretches of eternity and long after the consumer pop culture mourns today and moves on tomorrow. "

The Secret of the Lord

2009-06-02T22:42:00.000-07:00

Tonight, I was greatly encouraged by our last night at Discovery Group for the summer. God is doing something very special in the hearts of our church and it is so amazing to see God move! I can't help but be in awe of His faithfulness. I find myself wanting and hungering for more of His presence and His voice to speak me. It is challenging when life takes over but God calls us to continue "to not conform to this world but continue to be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what the will of God is, that which is good and acceptable and perfect." (Rom. 12:2).

I began reading a devotional and it started with Psalm 25:14 "The secret of the Lord is with those who fear Him." It is my desire to know the secrets of my Lord, to always be in tune with His thoughts and will for my life. The sign of a true friend is not when they tell us their secret sorrows but it is when they share with you their secret joys. It brought to mind the question, "have I let God tell me His secret joys for me? Or am I continually telling Him my sorrows and struggles, leaving Him no time to speak to me?" We are always full of request to God and that is not always wrong but our relationship with God is not supposed to be about us but about Him!! God wants us to get into an intimate relationship with Him - to get us in touch with His purposes! We need to be so intimate with God that our response is the response of Jesus in Matt. 6:10 before He was sent to the cross "Your will be done." What makes God so dear to me is not so much His big blessings to me, but it is the tiny things, because it is in those tiny things that God shows His amazing intimacy with me. He knows every detail of my life and of everyone's life!

God has great things in store for us to do and I want to allow God to instruct and to share the secrets of Him so that I may display them to others so that they can experience an amazing relationship with Jesus!

Come Away With Me!

2009-04-25T10:41:00.000-07:00

"Rise up my love, my fair one, and come away." Song 2:10

This morning, I asked Jesus what He had for me today and I heard in my spirit "Come Away with Me." (The song from Norah Jones comes popping in my head. :))

As I was reading and meditating on this, I couldn't help but just feel these words pierce my heart. The voice of My Beloved speaks to me and is calling me with His sweet voice to rise up. He calls me "my love and my fair one." Not only to rise up from my slumber but to rise up with Him away from the ways of the world so that He can reveal to me more of His ways. In the midst of my battles, struggles and trials, He bids me to "Come away with Him." To come away with Him is like coming home and being refreshed by God's grace and love. Knowing not only in my mind but in my heart the desires and goals He has for me and by His grace as I come away with Him, He will lead me to all that He has for me. He has kindled more the flame of love in my heart for Him and I will continue to rise up with Him when He beckons me to "come away."

Ty & Taylor Update

2009-03-11T22:56:00.000-07:00

My little kiddos that I have been nannying for are growing up so fast! I can't believe that Ty is going to be 3 in 5 months and Taylor is 7 months old. It just seemed like yesterday, I was meeting Taylor shortly after she was born. Now she has cut 2 teeth, can sit up on her own, and is on her way to crawling very soon! She is simply adorable and before I know it she will be walking and talking.

Ty has been my little buddy for 2 years now and it has been such a tremendous blessing to watch him grow up.

He is going to be starting pre-school next week! He is also now completely potty trained and only took him 3 weeks to do that. I am sooooooooo proud of him. He is coming into his own with his opinions and can be demanding at times. Talking all the time! His new thing now is screaming because Taylor has found her voice and they communicate with each other through screaming. Cute for like 10 seconds and then I start to feel like my head is about to explode with the high pitch shrills!

Such a little ham! I taught him the Asian squint! LOL!!

He loves trains (aka "choo choos"). Showing off his favorite Thomas!

At times, Ty still has yet to adjust that he is a big brother. He often takes Taylor's pacifiers and sticks it in his mouth. He is becoming much sweeter with her though!

All in all, I love these kids to no end! They are simply adorable!!!

The Lord is Faithful!

2009-03-06T15:23:00.000-08:00

I love adventures and surprises!! God certainly knows that since He created me that way. Well, last week, I was in for a surprise. I found out last Monday(3/9), that I am going to be laid off from SAIC. In a matter of minutes, my life changed as far as where I was going to work. As I left the office, I wasn't upset nor was I angry but instead, I felt such an overwhelming peace. I had resolved in my heart that in every circumstance, God is sovereign and He knew that this was going to happen and He was going to cover me!

I had a Dr.'s appointment after work that Monday and when the Dr. asked me how my day was going, I mentioned to him and the nurse that I just recently found out that I was going to be laid off. He empathized with me and was surprised that I still had a smile on my face. I told him that I know that I will be fine and everything will work out.

Throughout the week, I was in faith knowing that God totally was in control of the whole situation. In fact, as I was praying, God had placed in my heart more and more for ministry. At the beginning of this year, I felt that God was going to be shifting some things in my life and to be ready for what He has for me. No where in my wildest dreams was I expecting for this to happen! I believe that God is starting to shift things with this recent news and God was quick to answer my prayers and confirm what He was placing in my heart.

Last Friday, just 4 days after I found out I was losing my job, I got a call from my pastor with a job offer to come on board as a part time administrator. Our church has been experiencing such tremendous growth and people are really experiencing God's presence in the past month and a half. God is certainly FAITHFUL to provide me a job where I am doing what God has called me to do and for Him to provide for all of my needs. I truly believe that this was no coincidence but God knew all along and was simply putting together the pieces for this to happen.

I could not be more excited and thankful for God in my life. I can not help but to testify of how good God is! I hope that this encourages others to "Trust in the Lord!, For He does grant us the desires of our hearts!"

No Turning Back!

2009-03-01T21:09:00.000-08:00

This phrase has been repeating over and over in my head. Last week, this phrase came out a devotional that I was reading. It gave an example of a child getting on a scary amusement ride. Once on, the child realizes that there is "no turning back." With much fear, the child begins to cry wanting to turn back and not understanding of the fun that was going to soon come. The child only wanted to get out and rather stay in line rather than being on the ride with no way out.

At times, I feel like that child when facing the unknown. For me, I want to be able to understand what is going on and to see what is ahead of me. However, in life, that is not always going to happen and as a Christian, we are to put all of our trust in Jesus. When we face the unknown, it is easy to be tempted to retreat, quit or refuse to move forward. It is tempting to want to panic and doubt God's wisdom.

In John 6, Jesus began explaining to the disciples and to the people the depth of commitment to follow Him. He said, "I live because of the living Father who sent Me, in the same way anyone who feeds on Me will live because of Me." Now after Jesus said that, everyone started to leave Him, all except Peter. Jesus asked him, "Are you going to leave?" And his response was "Lord, to whom would we go? You have the words that give eternal life. We believe and we know You are the Holy One of God!"

I realize with each day, that the day will have its fair share of struggles and most of the time following Jesus will not be the popular thing to do. However, we need to resolve in our hearts that there is "NO TURNING BACK!!" Yes, the unknown can be scary, but I am assured through God's word that I am never alone and will come out blessed and stronger in faith. The ride that I am on with Jesus is far better than standing on the side lines watching others get on the ride. I know without a doubt that my choice to follow Jesus has brought me and will continue to bring me the ultimate rewards of an abundant life here on earth and an eternal life with Jesus!

2009 Let Your Life Shine!

2009-02-02T22:08:00.000-08:00

I have not posted a blog in awhile and being busy I guess is no excuse, so I am not going to make any excuses! From my last blog till now, a lot has happened some bad and some good. I won't go into too much detail but through it all, God has been with me every step of the way!

Well, for starters since my last blog, I was in a fairly bad car accident and thankfully I am fine but my poor Corolla did not fair well. I don't think any car will fair well after being in a collision with a Hummer! I am very thankful that I was not hurt and as a result of the accident, I was blessed with a new car a 2009 Toyota Rav 4. Although, I was sad to see my Toyota Corolla be laid to rest, I was happy to have a new car which I enjoy cruising around in.

I was also blessed to have spent a wonderful Christmas with my folks. (Drama Free!!) Praise the Lord!! It was an amazing time, they came down and we just hung out and watched movies. God certainly is faithful to answer my prayers! Although, the downside, I was not able to see my brother, but I hope to get see him real soon.

Christmas and New Year's came and went and I can't believe that we are now in February. 2009 is well on its way. I truly believe that 2009 is a year for us to let our lives shine! I am striving to let my life shine this year! This life that I lead, is nothing without Jesus Christ and I would not have the amazing life that I have without my relationship with Him. I want very badly for others to see Jesus through my life.

There is a scripture that I am very familiar with but when I read it a few weeks ago, it spoke so strongly to me...

He told them, "The harvest is plentiful, but the workers are few. Ask the Lord of the harvest, therefore, to send out workers into his harvest field. Luke 10:2

There are so many people around us that need to hear about Jesus and not to just have a knowledge about Him but to have an intimate relationship with Him! We as Christians need to take the time to see that God is wanting to bust open the gates of hell and start pulling people out into His Kingdom and make them white as snow and launch them into their destiny and calling! I get so excited to see that despite our circumstances, God is in complete control and if we put our focus on Him, there is nothing that can stop us from moving forward into all that God has for us! Like my Pastor said in a message recently, '09 Is Mine!!

The Dangers of Being a Nanny...

2008-12-05T08:37:00.000-08:00

One of the job hazards of being a nanny is that you open up yourself to catching whatever the kids get. Well, the kids that I watch have been sick over the past week and so far I have not gotten what they have had until now. If I had a choice of being sick, I wouldn't choose the stomach flu on my worst enemy. These last 24 hours were one of the roughest 24 hours of my life. On Wednesday evening, I went to bed early to get some much needed rest and woke up at 2am in the morning to an overwhelming feeling of nausea and the rest was history...From that point on I spent every hour and sometimes half hour in the bathroom vomiting my guts out. I think that it finally ended at around 6am. From that point on, I was too weak to even get out of bed. I spent the last 24 hours in bed sleeping, drinking gatorade and eating saltine crackers and praying that I would not get sick again!

Today, I feel so much better and I am starting to eat a little more. Thankfully, this only lasted 24 hours and God was with me every moment as I was praying for Him to make it stop. For those of you praying for me. Thank you!!!! I am truly blessed to have such great friends who were praying, have brought me soup and have offered to bring me things. For that, I am so grateful!!!

Where'sThat Smell Coming From??!!

2008-12-02T19:59:00.000-08:00

Well, it is official...it is the season where kids are getting sick. Ty and Taylor of course are no different. Over Thanksgiving, Ty was sick and in fact was throwing up all night on Thanksgiving. I got a text message from Lisa, his mom, and I felt so bad for him. That really stinks! Anyway, the good news is that Ty is better.

Today, I was at work early to watch Ty and Taylor. I walked in to see Ty and he looked good, watching Elmo but still had a running nose. No big deal. His little sister Taylor got what Ty had and had just thrown up right when I got there. I was bracing myself to deal with a vomiting and sick 4-month old. The good news is that Taylor is such a great baby and eventhough she was sick. She rarely fusses.

I was expecting for her to be throwing up all day and she didn't thankfully. She spit up a little but nothing like the projectile that was coming out this morning with her parents. Lisa was occasionally checking in to see how the kids were doing and everything was fine. Just when I sent that text message, of course something has to happen.

Taylor woke up from her nap and it was time for me to feed her. She was taking her bottle when all of sudden a loud explosive noise came out of her bottom, then another and immediately I knew that we were going to have a problem....DIARRHEA!!!. Her bottom was starting to feel damp and I immediately ran her up the stairs and into the sink. It was all over her up the front of her and up her back. Not good!! I quickly turned on the water and proceeded to hose her off and once I got her clean, I gave her a bath. Ty was such a sweetheart and such a great helper as I asked him to give me a towel for his sister and he did. Taylor was finally all cleaned up and fresh. So I went downstairs and tried feeding her again. As she was eating, I thought that she may of had another accident because I kept smelling a foul odor. I thought that I may have not cleaned her up completely. I checked and everything was fine. Still that odor was still lingering. I put her down in her swing and realized that that foul odor was coming from me!! She had left her mark on my jeans! I quickly found a pair of sweatpants from Lisa's closet and put them on.

I often wondered which is worse throw up or diarrhea and I would have to say both are bad and even worse when it gets on you! I am certainly getting trained up for being a mom!! Antibacterial soap and hand sanitizers are my friends!!! If I could deal with that, I can pretty much deal with anything!!

Time Flies When You Are Having Fun!!

2008-12-01T18:28:00.000-08:00

What a week I have had last week! I get a little tired just thinking about it but it was all worth it! It all started with the Charger's game last Sunday, 11/23. It was my first home Charger's game!!! I was so excited!! Great seats, fun and company....but not so great of an ending of the game! The Charger's lost the last 20 seconds to a field goal! UGGGHHHH!! Well, enough of focusing on the negative, lets focus that the seats that we got were great thanks to Trisha's friend hooking us up! Here are a few pics...

Well, after a very disappointing game...I was looking forward to the New Kids on The Block Concert!!! I knew that they would not disappoint me and they sure didn't! I had so much fun at the concert! In fact, I am still humming the songs as I go about my day! I know....I know....people are starting to think that I am weird! It was great to be able to hear them sing their songs and it just brought me back to when I was a little girl listening to their tape and looking at their poster. It was seriously a dream come true to see and hear them live!! I <3 NKOTB but don't worry not more than I LOVE Jesus!!!

Than there was Thanksgiving!!! I had such a great time with the Beidls! Good times!!! Ate until I could not eat anymore and than ate some more!! Such good memories of playing Cranium and me always doing something with an airplane and than teaching Andrea and the rest of the family how to play Take 2 and keeping Andrea from cheating! I just smile just thinking about the good times!! I was so thankful for them and for all that God has given me this year!!

Than there was my birthday...on Saturday! I was so blessed to be able to spend my birthday with my girlfriends, Trisha, LaDonna, Deena and Melanie! We went to the Red Pearl Kitchen and it was very yummy and than to the top of the Hyatt! I was so blessed by their presence and it made me so much more thankful of God in filling my life with such joy in deep friendships!

I must say that on Sunday, when I finally had some time to relax and reflect on my week, I was overwhelmed with just gratitude! The devil had tried to tell me that I hadn't done much this year! But that was so not true! I was able to fulfill 3 dreams of mine. 1) Seeing Garth Brooks in concert and 2) Seeing NKOTB in concert and 3) Go to a NFL game. Those 3 things happened this year...the year that I turned 30. I was also able to go to see Wicked, visit Azusa Street, Getty Museum in LA and Malibu, see Kenny Chesney, Rascal Flatts, OneRepublic in concert and see my favorite routines at the So You Think You Can Dance Tour. I also went to Scotland for 10 days on an amazing missions trip! I realized WOW!! I did all that!! This year has been a great year but it has had its trying times but I am thankful for the growth that has come out of me persevering and believing! I love my life and I felt so alive knowing that I didn't let one opportunity pass me by this year! I lived my 30th year to the fullest!! Knowing all that I had accomplished and done this past year!! I am looking forward with ANTICIPATION for this next year!! God is on the move!! Stay Tuned!!

God's Grace is always sufficient!!

2008-11-16T22:21:00.000-08:00

It has been a couple of weeks since my last entry. I have been a busy little bee since the beginning of Nov. and it is only the middle of the month! God has been giving me so much grace with all the different things that are on my plate right now. In the past two weekends, I have helped put together an awesome Mad Hatter Tea Party bridal shower for my friend Erin and yesterday, I put together a Chili Cook-off for our church which was so much fun! Although, I would not have been able to do any of this without God's help! At times I have felt the stress and anxiety try to creep up in me but I would give it to God and almost immediately an overwhelming sense of peace would come over me. God never leaves us or forsakes us!

As the holiday season is approaching quickly, I realize how much I need Jesus in my life and how in the midst of the hustle and bustle of life, He just wants us to stop and spend time with Him. When we give our concerns to Jesus, He always works it out!

Earlier this week, I was meditating on the scripture from Luke 10:40-42 about Mary and Martha:

Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, "Lord, don't you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!"

"Martha, Martha," the Lord answered, "you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her."

As I was reading this scripture, Jesus had pricked my heart when it mentioned that Martha was distracted by all the preparations and was overwhelmed with "work." I had to check my attitude and my heart because that was what I was feeling. I realize that God has given me giftings to plan and administrate but I can not lose sight of what is important and that is to partner with Jesus and allow Him to take care of all the details and instead spend time with Jesus rather than be worried with things that I can not control!

The Call - San Diego

2008-11-03T22:05:00.000-08:00

A fire was ignited on Saturday at The Call. It is the fire of God's Spirit and the cry of Christians pleading for mercy for our nation and repentance from our evil ways. My heart broke as thousands of Christians gather to pray for the sanctity of marriage to be preserved, for lives of the unborn children to be saved, and for our nation to turn back to God! I was encouraged, humbled and challenged to go deeper with God. God had been challenging me these few months with my time and affections. Life can easily take over if you don't stop and make a conscious effort to go to God. We can make all the excuses....busyness, tiredness, illness, tv, etc. At one point that day, there was a pastor who shared about addictions and addictions doesn't necessarily have to be alcohol, pornography but it can be anything that can take your affections away from God. God wants all of our affections and the pastor had challenged us to look at our lives and to seek God on the areas that we have not given Him our affection. For me, it was tv. I know it may seem silly but it is true. When I come home from a long day of work, my escape was to turn on the tv. It started with a few shows and with DVR, the list of shows began to grow and grow to where I would find myself spending evening after evening in front of the tv filling my soul with junk and many times staying up late to watch a show. That day, I determined in my heart to not continue this and told God that once I got home that I would delete the shows that did not glorify Him, which was the majority of them. That night I did and I felt so liberated! I want to be filled with hope, joy, faith and love and that only comes from God and His word! I want to have my will be His will in my life. I want to DO as it says in Mark 12:30

Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.'

As the election is tomorrow, I am praying for God's hand of mercy to fall on our city, state and nation! My faith is in a HOLY and RIGHTEOUS GOD and I know that He will never leave nor forsake His children!! America will always be "ONE NATION UNDER GOD!"

Ty Bones

2008-11-02T18:41:00.000-08:00

It is almost like tradition now that I get to see Ty in his costume on Halloween. Unfortunately, Taylor was too tired to partake in all the festivities. Ty was so cute in his bones costume. It was quite fitting for him since his nickname is Ty Bones. It came from when he was in the NICU for the first few months of his life. Above his crib, he had a dog with his name on a bone around his neck and it just stuck. Lisa, his mom tried to get him in several costumes with no avail. I was surprised that she was able to paint his face, she told him it was sunscreen...it worked!!! He had a godzilla costume which was so cute but he would not step within 5 feet of that costume. He is definitely growing up before my eyes and I can't believe that it has been almost 2 years since I started watching him. Time has sure flown by!!

Ty as a football player last year...at 14 months

Ty as a bag of bones this year at 2 years old.

Me with the kiddos...Taylor (2 1/2 months) and Ty

Shoreline Got Talent

2008-10-26T19:35:00.001-07:00

I had such a blast at our First Shoreline Got Talent Show/Hallelujah Party. All the kids were so cute in their costumes. People going crazy at the cake walk and I am not referring to the kids. LOL!! I mean I knew that we have very talented people in my church but I was blown away!!

For the kids division, Tuba playing with a "snapper", Hannah Montana and a magic card trick...I was just glad that I was not a judge. For the adult division, the Joker playing the saxophone, Poi ball dancing (never knew that existed!!), and a flute and piano duet. If we have another talent show...I think I might pull out my violin skills...we will see!!

My personal favorite was the Tuba player accompanied by his brother "The Snapper". Here is the video below for your enjoyment!

Such a little Ham!!

2008-10-26T18:32:00.001-07:00

Last weekend Ty and his little sister Taylor were dedicated to the Lord and I was able to join the family for brunch to celebrate! I really wanted to get a picture of both Ty and Taylor but Ty is still in denial that he has a little sister. :) Ty is such a ham and changing daily with new vocabulary.

Leadership

2008-10-24T00:37:00.000-07:00

I was reading a devotional today about leadership and when reading it is something that we have heard. That the qualifications of a leader is not to just sit behind a desk and simply bark orders for other people to accomplish. If that were the case, life as we know would come to standstill with a lot of people talking and not a whole lot of action. Successful leaders are able delegate duties to others but are also willing to perform those duties if necessary.

Jesus set the perfect example on the night he was betrayed by Judas Iscariot. As the evening meal was being served, he got up from the table, grabbed a towel and basin of water, and proceeded to wash the feet of his disciples. Such a task was supposed to be done by a servant, but Jesus was willing to take on that role. Peter wasn't sure what to think of this, rejecting the foot washing at first. He had to be convinced. Later, Jesus informed Peter and the other disciples that leadership equals servanthood. It's not an easy truth for many leaders to apply to life, but Christ’s example that night makes an eloquent case.

Many people want to be leaders but don't want to do what it takes to be a leader and that is to serve. Meaning that you are never above any task no matter how menial and that you are willing to be an example to others. I know in my life I am constantly evaluating how I can be a better leader and I am in no way perfect but I do know that I have a heart to serve and see the Kingdom of God be advanced and to see the church (the bride of Christ) be built to be holy and blameless. That is going to take people who are willing to lay down their lives to serve others.

OH NO NOT AGAIN!!

2008-10-14T17:40:00.000-07:00

The words "Santa Ana's wind" are words that don't give me the warm fuzzies and today it was no different. I was running some errands with Ty today and as I was heading back to the house. I noticed that there was a fire truck that going down the street and as I was approaching the onramp to head back to the house. I saw smoke and then I saw flames on the hillside. The horrible feelings and memories of what had happened last year when I had to evacuate from my condo at 6am in the morning started to creep in.

Ty was in the back not even aware of what was going on and I saw the flames on the hillside and made a quick decision that it wasn't a good idea to go towards the fire. The hillside that was on fire was about a mile away from where Ty lives. Fortunately, I saw the helicopters dropping flame retardant and water on the flames. I made a few calls to Ty's parents to let them know that we were okay and heading over to Ty's grandmother's house in Poway. After an hour, the firefighters were able to put out the fire and all was safe.

I thought to myself..."not again!!" I cried out to God and began to pray which is all I can do is these situations and praise the Lord He protected the homes and the fire did not spread. A big thank you to the firefighters! You guys ROCK!! But GOD ROCKS MORE!!

Relaunch of Shoreline Christian Church

2008-10-13T22:19:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, our church moved to our new location in Tierrasanta and we had our first Sunday Celebration Service at Gaspar De Portola Middle School. It went relatively smoothly and it felt really good to be at our new location. Thank you so much for all who have prayed for a smooth transition.

I am definitely looking forward to seeing God open doors to reach out to the community of Tierrasanta! I wanted to share some pictures that I have taken of our first Sunday. This is only the beginning of great things! Check out more pictures at my Shutterfly site.

Ty and Taylor Update

2008-10-09T19:50:00.000-07:00

Well, it has been 2 months since little Taylor has made her entrance into this world and she is so cute! She really is such a good baby. Now that her mom Lisa is starting back to work, I am now left to care for her and Ty. Ty is going through the typical reaction of having a new sister. He goes from being super sweet and giving her a kiss to not wanting to have anything to do with her (which is mostly the case right now). Ty is definitely reacting to me now having to take care of Taylor and that is just not acceptable in his 2 year old mind. In his mind, I am his and my attention should be solely on him.

Everytime, I have to feed Taylor, Ty starts to grab my arm to pull the bottle away from Taylor to signal me to pay attention to him and play with him. Even today, he reached over to try to take Taylor out of my arms and put her in her baby seat. This kid is relentless!! Fortunately, Taylor sleeps alot still and whenever she is sleeping, I devote all my attention to him and reassure him that he will always be the number one and that he is a big brother now!

Ty is also talking a lot more and he now calls me DeeDee which I think is so cute since he can't say Stephanie but he can say quesadilla! I am baffled by that but whenever I get to the house he always yells "Hi DeeDee" and he gets so excited to see me. A real self-esteem booster!! LOL!!

I am definitely learning more and more patience and have asked God for guidance so much more now than ever before and He has always come through!! Especially when it comes to coordinating their eating and sleeping schedules! They are such a joy to spend time with and I am certainly blessed to have the opportunity to care for them.

Here are a few recent pics....(I hope to get some more when I remember to bring my camera!) These are off of my blackberry...

Ty and me.

Taylor at 2 months (time has flown by!)

Expectancy!!!

2008-09-30T23:11:00.000-07:00

"according to my earnest expectation and hope, that I will not be put to shame in anything, but that with all boldness, Christ will even now, as always, be exalted in my body, whether by life or by death." Phil. 1:20

"and hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out within our hearts through the Holy Spirit who was given to us." Romans 5:5

If I were to look to what is currently going on in our nation and in our economy, I can easily get discouraged and lose hope. But Praise be to God! I serve a Mighty and Awesome God who through Him nothing is impossible.

As I was reading this scripture, I thought to myself am I expecting God to do great things and to change this nation or I am just hoping that God will come through!! I realized that even in my own life right now there are areas where I find myself just hoping that things will change and eventhough God has confirmed through His word and through other people that God is faithful and will accomplish the good work He has started in me. However, it is still hard because I don't want to be disappointed or to be wrong.

Disappointment is a lie from the devil and his scheme and plan to get us to not have faith and to expect God to do things. It says in the scriptures above that "according to my earnest expectation and hope, I will not be put to shame!" and "hope does not disappoint."

Today, moving forward....I am expecting God to do great things through me and in me! It is not my job to figure out how God is going to accomplish His perfect plan for me but it is certainly my responsibility to obey Him and to trust Him because He is always faithful. Because my expectation is in Jesus, I can proudly say that I will not be put to shame or be disappointed. God is always going to come through!! I pray that I am reminded of that every moment of every day!!

A Not So Pleasant Surprise....

2008-09-26T17:20:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, I felt inclined to enjoy some seafood and I was happy to find salmon on sale at the grocery store. After a long week of working and babysitting, I was looking forward to make a nice meal. I had put all my groceries away and decided to take a small break to vedge out before making dinner. After resting a bit, I opened up the freezer to take out the salmon and prepare my meal.....well to my dismay....I found a not so pleasant surprise....I found the ice box overflowing with water and slush everywhere. Within a couple of hours my ice maker was working fine and now it was leaking water and not making ice. UGGGGHHHH!!

I was hoping to get it fixed today but the earliest appointment would be tomorrow. So I had made plans with a few people to hang out today and I had to cancel them because I now have to babysit my freezer and empty the ice bucket every few hours so that it doesn't leak from the freezer to the refridgerator to the floor.

To say the least...I rather be hanging out with my friends...but if I had to babysit I rather babysit children then my freezer!!

Here are a few pics to illustrate....

The ice bucket filling up with water

I had to put a large mixing bowl to catch more water.

The wet towels to soak all the access water seeping out of the bottom of the fridge.

I will be thankful when it gets fixed. I wish I knew how to turn off the water going into the ice maker. Although, I had to deal with this not so pleasant surprise...The upside...I still enjoyed my salmon meal with some broccoli and rice. So yummy and healthy!! Then later that night, I got a very pleasant surprise...My friend Ashley will be coming to San Diego to visit for the week. I am excited to see her!!!

What a Great Weekend!!

2008-09-14T17:04:00.000-07:00

This weekend was a jam packed weekend!! Well, first off I went line dancing and I must say I am addicted. However, not as addicted as my friend Gwen but I am getting there. I have been going line dancing for a couple of weeks now and I can finally say that I am improving. On Friday night was the best yet. I was able to pick up on most of the dances. One of the ladies who I noticed was really good, paid me a compliment that I picked up the dances well, which gave me a boost in confidence. To say the least, I had a great time and danced until my legs felt like they were going to fall off.

This weekend, Pastor John Rohrer came to minister to our leaders and church. It was such an amazing time! A good number of people received prophetic words this weekend and although I did not receive one personally, I was so encouraged by the words that went forth. I truly believe that God has something very special in store for Shoreline Christian Church in San Diego and for us individually. The were so many things that ministered to me this weekend, but one thing in particular was the importance of being encouraged in the Lord. I have noticed not just specifically with our church but in general, how easy it is for us to be discouraged and when we are discouraged it is almost impossible to move forward and it keeps us stagnant. I have learned and still learning how to encourage myself and the importance of encouraging others.

Pastor John had referenced to one of my favorite verses in the Bible and a verse that I have held on to since I became a Christian and it is in Heb. 10:35-36:

"Therefore, do not throw away your confidence, which has a great reward. For you have need of endurance, so that when you have done the will of God, you may receive what was promised. "

And the thing that he pointed out from this verse that ministered to me was that the devil can not take away our confidence. The devil is going to do his best to get us to throw away our confidence, to be discouraged and to give up. When we are discouraged and want to give up, it is because we have thrown our confidence away. How important it is for us to pick our confidence and know who we are in God. Knowing who we are in God and what God is capable and willing to do for us, we are unstoppable and nothing is impossible! It is inevitable that we are going to go through tough times but the key is to not to throw away our confidence but endure, persevere and not give up for it is for certain that God will come through and we will receive what God has promised us!

It is also important to encourage others and I am challenged to do just that. I am so grateful for the people around me that encourage me daily....even when I went line dancing how one person who encouraged made all the difference in me putting myself out there to learn the line dances.

Thank you Pastor John for coming to share what God had placed on your heart and an even bigger THANK YOU to God for showing up this weekend!!!

On a side note....the Charger's lost AGAIN!! I refused to be discouraged...hehehe!! But my 49er's WON!!....Woohoo!

I have no words...

2008-09-13T10:46:00.000-07:00

LOVE!!

2008-09-06T21:42:00.000-07:00

This week has been a challenging week but Praise be to God that He is on the throne and is in control!! There have been tears and there has been laughter and through it all God has been by my side. I could not imagine my life without Him. Although, the challenges are still there, I have faith that through Jesus, all things are possible! I had written this poem a couple of years ago when I was going through some dark times and I still find encouragement that God is always faithful and His love is unconditional and everlasting!!

Who am I to know a love like Yours?

You love me with an everlasting love

Beautiful, fearfully and wonderfully made

A crown of beauty and a royal jewel in Your hand

Who knows me as intimately as You?

You knew me from the beginning

And You will love me until the end for all eternity

There is nothing that escapes Your loving and watchful eye

When I am bruised and bloodied from fighting this good fight of faith

And when I am weary

You take me up by the hand to pick me up

You come to tell me that I will fight for you

You are always there and never will You forsake me

Your touch and Your presence refreshes my soul

Your portion is enough for me

Yet You want to give me so much more

How can I respond to such love?

You gave me life by Your sacrifice

All I can do is stand in awe and reverence

To praise and worship You, My Jesus, My Love

It's My Birthday!! - Happy Birthday to Me!!

2008-08-24T20:24:00.000-07:00

I am sure most of you are wondering and saying...wait...it's not your birthday and yes, that is true. The day I was born is Nov. 29th but today, Aug. 25th is the day that I was born again to Jesus Christ! 9 years ago today, I made a decision to give my life to Jesus Christ at a campus bible study and my life has never been the same since!

The love and passion that I have for Jesus when I was first made the decision to follow Him doesn't even compare to the love and passion I have for Him today! Now to be real, this journey that I am on with God has not always been a walk in the park. There have been times of darkness, where I saw myself just bloodied from being in the battle and barely hanging on. It was in those moments, I remembered that giving up and staying down was not an option. It was also in those moments, I felt so close to God because I was desperate for Him to move in my life. And He always came through to comfort me and through those difficult times, I learned how to trust and to allow God to have His way in me and guide me. One of the verses that sustained me through those times was in Psalm 139:10-12

"...Your hand will lead me, and Your right hand will lay hold of me. If I say 'Surely the darkness will overwhelm me, and the light around me will be night,' Even the darkness is not dark to You, and the night is as bright as the day. Darkness and light are alike to You."

He has even shown me these past few months how much He loves me and how He is calling me to go deeper with Him! Words can not even begin to describe the sense of gratitude I have for Him for everything in my life. To think of what my life could of been without Him brings shivers down my spine. All I can do is just praise Him!!

Reflecting on today, I just can not get over how great God is and how He does not overlook any detail. I have been taking this 13 week course on Financial Peace through Dave Ramsey and this course has opened my eyes on finances and has given me the tools to be not only financially stable and have peace in my finances. It has also given me more of a desire to give! Well, anyway, tonight was our last class. Dave Ramsey was on fire! He gave an example from his travels to Edinburgh, Scotland which I was so excited about having just come back from there two weeks ago!! As I was sitting there, listening to him speak on how we were created in God's image and how everything that we have is not ours but God's and it just brought me back to when it all started 9 years ago almost the exact time when that same message was spoken to me and I received Jesus into my heart! It blows my mind!! What a reminder that I have come so far but yet God wants to do more in my life and there is so much more that He hasn't even begin to show me.

I am encouraged to know that I have been walking with God for 9 years and I am looking forward to more adventures with my "Daddy!" I encourage you wherever you are with God to go seek Him. He is longing for a relationship with you! He sent His only begotten Son Jesus to die for us so that we can have a relationship with Him! That is how much He loves you!! He is more than able to come through!!

Also on a side note, I want to say Happy Birthday to Di! My faithful friend and prayer warrior who has stood with me through thick and thin! On this day, God gave her life and what a life she is living! I pray that God will grant the desires of her heart today and this year!! Love ya!!

The Shack

2008-08-22T19:45:00.000-07:00

I have been waiting in anticipation to read this book, "The Shack" by William P. Young for what seems like eternity but for about a month. The book was first mentioned to me by one our campus directors in my church at a prayer meeting and I had every intention of picking up the book before I left for my mission trip to Scotland. Well, I did not have the time to get the book before I left and in my focus to leave for Scotland, the book left my mind. I guess I was destined to read the book as a friend on my mission trip in Scotland mentioned the book to me and told me that it changed his life. Well, any book that has that affect on someone, I want to read. I was excited to hear that he had bought extra copies to give away and that he would give me one. I was expecting to get it before I left Scotland but I settled for it being mailed to me. When I returned from my trip, several friends of mine had already had read it and were raving about it. It just increased my impatience to get the book and occasional annoyance as I did not want them to tell me details of the book so that it would ruin it for me. Finally....I received it yesterday in the mail!! Woohoo!

Almost immediately, I started reading the book and I couldn't put the book down! The time I put it down was to leave for a prayer meeting and immediately after I came home, I picked it right up and read it some more. I would of stayed up to finish it but I really wanted to get everything that the author was trying to convey. I finished the book this afternoon and I can not even begin to describe the revelation that I have been getting from this book! I can say for myself....this book has changed my life!

Through this book, I am more in love with God, my creator than I ever was before. I am overwhelmed with emotion on how God is ALWAYS good and how He ALWAYS loves us and how He is ALWAYS with us!

I would recommend this book to anyone and have you find out for yourself! If you have read the book already, I would love to get your insights of the book.

Cables Wynd House Children Video

2008-08-12T23:42:00.001-07:00

This is a video that I took on the last day that our mission team were in Edinburgh, Scotland. After a week of renovating and restoring Henderson Gardens. Centrepoint Church invited the community of Cables Wynd House to church. The children played an instrumental part in helping us restore the park. The church had a special program for them and invited them to sing in front of the church led by Dixie Forbes.

Proverbs 31 Woman - Are we to busy for God?

2008-08-11T09:53:00.000-07:00

This morning I was reading a devotional that really challenged me today and I thought I would share my thoughts so that it may encourage others. The devotional started with one of my favorite scriptures:

"Charm is deceptive, and beauty does not last; but a woman who fears the Lord will be greatly be praised." Prov. 31:30

I know every woman wants to be the one that people think about when reading this passage in Proverbs 31. When reading this passage, it seems that the only thing that we have in common with the woman described in Proverbs is that we are really, really busy.

I know I find myself in the trap of being busy and sadly, busy seems to be the value lifestyle today. As I read this devotional it posed the question of "What does God say about being busy?" The answer comes through what Jesus said to Martha during one of His visits. "You are worried and upset over all these details. There is only one thing worth being concerned about." (Luke 10:41-42). I thought to myself, have I been too busy "doing" that I may be missing out on the real work that God has asked me to do?

Looking more deeply into the Proverbs 31 woman, I find that there are more virtues than just being a busy woman. I see that this woman is defined by something much more substantial than a busy schedule or a long list of things to do and accomplish. I see that her husband (vs. 11), her servants, the poor and the needy (vs. 15, 20), the community (vs. 24) and her children (vs. 20) see her qualities and character shine more so than what she has accomplished. God wants me to be involved in people's lives, not just busy checking off tasks on my to-do list. It is easy for me to use my talents and abilities to accomplish many things. But the real challenge is to find ways build healthy relationships while accomplishing things that I need to do.

According to verse 30, the number one priority of the Proverbs 31 woman is "Fear of the Lord." This should dictate my daily to-do list. This kind of fear is a constructive fear that means acknowledging God's authority and allowing only God to order our lives. I know that I prone to be a people pleaser, allowing the opinions of others to influence my decisions. It is so easy to forget that God's opinion of me is the only opinion that counts. God values us not because of what we accomplished but because of what He has accomplished for us in Jesus Christ. He wants to impart His love, power and grace into us and work it out of us every day. When I think about that I am so motivated to live for Him! Because God loves me so much, I can relax and live my busy life confidently and with great joy!

Baby Taylor

2008-08-09T23:54:00.000-07:00

Today, I have a new baby in my life. For those who do not know. I am a nanny to an amazing little boy named Ty and today, he became a big brother. His sister, Taylor was born this morning at 7:41am, 8lbs, 2oz, 19in long.

I am so excited and thankful that she and her mom, Lisa are healthy and good. I can't wait to meet her in person tomorrow!

Mission Trip to Scotland!

2008-08-05T19:42:00.000-07:00

I just came back from an amazing trip to Edinburgh, Scotland! In 10 days, myself and a team from North Carolina was able to visit the sites and renovate a park in Cables Wynd House, a small community within the city of Edinburgh.

When I arrived I was taken back by the beauty of Scotland, the rolling green hills and the beautiful castles we visited in LinLithgow and Edinburgh. There is so much history in the city, but I was amazed at how dark it was spiritually towards God and Christianity. There is a church that was next to the hostel that we were staying at and it is now a nightclub called Faith. We passed by several churches that experienced the same fate.

However, God is moving in Edinburgh and I am blessed to have had the opportunity to go to Edinburgh and serve. Our team was briefed on the culture of Scotland the first day we arrived (8/26) and after our briefing we went to Cable's Wynd House and Henderson Gardens (The park that we restored.) The park was so overgrown that you could not see inside it and there was trash everywhere. The play area had graffiti and trash everywhere. It was certainly not safe for kids to even play in. However, there were some kids playing. I thought to myself, we have our work cut out for us.

Sunday (8/27) was the kick-off to restore Henderson Gardens. At first it was just a few people there but before I knew it. I turned around and the park was filled with people just helping cleaning up trash. That evening, a woman on our team fondly known as "Miss Dixie" led 3 people to the Lord. After hearing the testimonies, I knew God was going to do something very special.

As the week progressed, we started building friendships with the community and the children. The children were getting involved in painting and cleaning up the thorn bushes. I could see the walls of mistrust coming down and their hearts being open to Jesus.

The weather cooperated with us since it does rain a lot in Scotland and the only night we were not able to work was on Thursday (8/30). The amazing thing was the kids and the moms were waiting for us in the rain just to talk to us and there were certainly great conversations that went forth. We were able to finish painting and cleaning up the park on Friday.

On Saturday, we had our Gala day, where we celebrated the restoration of the park. We had grilled hotdogs and had a bouncy castle, face painting for the kids and I had my face painted "I <3 style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">"The foremost is, 'Hear, O Israel! The Lord our God is one Lord. And you shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength. The second is this, "You shall love your neighbor as yourself." There is no other commandment greater than these."

It so simple, love God with all your heart, soul, mind and strength and love your neighbor as yourself. That is exactly what we did in action. I love God with all my heart, soul, mind and strength and I will admit that the second part is more difficult that is to love others as I love myself. But I had an opportunity to love on these people and I believe that they saw Christ in us as we loved them by serving them and restoring this park.

As I get acclimated back to life in San Diego, I am challenged and to love others and to serve others in my church and in my community. I realize how blessed I am and Jesus came to be a servant and He had so much compassion, mercy and love. He lived a life of service and died so that we can live. It so easy to get distracted by the cares of this world and focus on the areas that we are lacking in or struggling in. I believe God has called me and every Christian to love Him with all of our heart, soul, mind and spirit and as we focus on Him, our needs are met, our problems are not as significant and we are able to pour into others.

I am so thankful for the opportunity to be used by God and I encourage all to ask Him what He has for you to do and who to love.

Below is a slide show of the transformation!

30 And Thriving!!

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Well, it is official, I have turned 30. To be honest, I had mixed feelings about turning 30. There was no fighting the fact that with each passing day, I was going to get to that very significant day.
Quoting from one of my favorite movies "13 Going on 30" I am 30, Flirty and Thriving! I believe that this is going to be a great year!!